Send me a big smile.nEnvelope me in your arms.nTape my knees across my tummy.nShut me up inside a cardboard box.nnLitter it with first class stamps andnTell me that I’m number one.nMaybe a sticker or two tonShow everyone that I’m fun.nnRemember that you needn’t bothernPack me a lunch box or water.nJust remember that I love you.nJust remember that you’ll nevernnSee me ever again.nMy body got messed up on the train.nA case of wine and somenBoxes of knives fellnOn my face. Now,nI am going to die.nnI close my eyes and listen to mynInsides becoming outsides.nI listen to them wave and filenOut of me in a parade.nnMy kidneys descend hand in handnAfter the storm has clearednLike a couple of soggy trufflesnOr a loving pair of deer.nnWell, I wasn’t built quite strong enoughnTo keep them warm and safe.nI cried as your heart tumbled out with mine.nOur love would never propagate.nnMaybe I could find a boat tonTake us both away.nI wouldn’t have to miss you anymore.nI promise it would be the same.nnI’d listen to you gigglenAnd I’d listen to your heart beat fasternWith every caress,nI’d listen long into each morning after.