Its been years of drifting endlessly in dark; no light
Where is grace? Where is bond? This stone swan a poltergeist
(i've lost all touch, i've lost everyone)
(and I wonder if it is possible)
Pluck all feathers let skin become thinner
(I'm not sure who's given up on who)
(for my heart to be this hard?)
But bare body flaws the sense of worth and doubt soon lingers
(how am I still alive with my guts tied into knots?)
These arms are anchors the have no features
(how is it possible for this burn to be so hot?)
These ribs are bursting from a skinny worthless creature
(how is it possible for you voice to travel so far?)
It's been years of drifting endlessly in dark; no light
Hollow to be buoyant in this vast sea, thick entire
Wind to whip these crests to kiss our face
Currents to drive us tired
Fuck these wings they melted when we rose above the trees
Wax still clings to flesh; feathers coloring the breeze
This will be the last time I try
This will be the last time I fly
I'll trade these innards for a set of oars
Paddle hard; paddle towards; I still have life; I still want more
Let the waves sweep
Let the currents pull us in tow
Knots fray, black swallowed weight
Pull us in tow